I have written in a few days but I think about you all the time. Sometimes I can't organize my thoughts enough to write, but I remember little things about you all day.
On Saturday; Maya, Gargi and I went to visit Debolina-di. It was lovely and strange at the same time. Debolinadi made some delicious appetizers and it was good to spend some time talking to her. It was strange because you were not there. I got your squishy pillow but haven't taken it out of the bag yet. I tried to wear your white earrings, but I just couldn't do it.
Gargi was supposed to make banana bread yesterday. Do you remember the time, I was drunk and making banana bread and forgot to put the baking powder in it? Consequently it didn't rise? The banana bread reminded me of you.
I was putting on some concealer and I remembered the time Debolinadi got you concealer and you tried to apply it to almost all of your face. Finally Debolinadi told you that it was concealer, not magic. You had acne then, I was amazed at how you worked on getting perfect skin for your wedding.
I woke up on Saturday and remembered how you wore men's cologne when you were younger, but more recently all your perfumes were ultra-girly. What a strange thought to wake up to.
I know that people grieve differently. I am bitter and angry about losing you. I wish I could see this in a more positive way, other people can. They can appreciate that you had the best care, a good husband, a loving family and that you got a last good month. I want to be those people. They love you too but they don't seem so mad with the world.
I worry that my friends will run out of patience with me. I worry one day, I won't remember you all the time.
Will I have really lost you then?
On Saturday; Maya, Gargi and I went to visit Debolina-di. It was lovely and strange at the same time. Debolinadi made some delicious appetizers and it was good to spend some time talking to her. It was strange because you were not there. I got your squishy pillow but haven't taken it out of the bag yet. I tried to wear your white earrings, but I just couldn't do it.
Gargi was supposed to make banana bread yesterday. Do you remember the time, I was drunk and making banana bread and forgot to put the baking powder in it? Consequently it didn't rise? The banana bread reminded me of you.
I was putting on some concealer and I remembered the time Debolinadi got you concealer and you tried to apply it to almost all of your face. Finally Debolinadi told you that it was concealer, not magic. You had acne then, I was amazed at how you worked on getting perfect skin for your wedding.
I woke up on Saturday and remembered how you wore men's cologne when you were younger, but more recently all your perfumes were ultra-girly. What a strange thought to wake up to.
I know that people grieve differently. I am bitter and angry about losing you. I wish I could see this in a more positive way, other people can. They can appreciate that you had the best care, a good husband, a loving family and that you got a last good month. I want to be those people. They love you too but they don't seem so mad with the world.
I worry that my friends will run out of patience with me. I worry one day, I won't remember you all the time.
Will I have really lost you then?
Hey Pri,
ReplyDeleteDont ever worry on running out of patience with friends you will forever find me hanging on to give you that company. You will never lose her ever.